I want to be this happy!

Hello my little friends. Just logged on to see if anyone had missed me...

I am coughing my head off in Sharm El Sheik. I have been sleeping most of the time. Not sure weither it is my meds that make me tired or the sun. So 6 days have past. is that true?! Wow, I must have really sleept a lot... So I think what I have is a mixture between some kind of really mean cold and a exsmokers cough (It's suposed to come arround two weeks after quitting). So I have been feeling pretty dull actually. Hope to get well soon so I can enjoy some of the sun. Hop all is well. xxx/G

Merry X-mas

Sorry for no blogging. I have been sleeping away my fever. Soaking my bed with sweat.
Lovely huh?

Tomorrow I'll be leaving for Sharm El Shejk, hopefully I won't be lying around the room with a fever for two weeks or be eaten by sharks. No blogging for a while. I feel like a sweaty pig. That's the time when you look at pictures of yourself and think "If I only could look that good, living the high life.." I Really need to pack my bag... But I haven't got out of bed for two days.

Wish me good luck. And a merry Christmas to ya'll!

It sucks being broke. It's a Saturday. See you on New Years!

Bye!

Yeyeyeyeyey! I got in! Sociology in spring then... :)

Day 9: My beliefs

My parents have always been very spiritual. I was brought up in a semi Hindu, Buddhist, Christian way... My parents are hippies ok. So we had it all. The tarot cards the I Ching and little statues of Shiva, Ganesh and Buddha. But both my mum and dad were raised in very Christian homes, and that also affected me. My mum went to a Catholic school until she was 8. Not that her family were Catholics, but they lived in Cairo and that was the only English speaking school they had. My dad on the other hand comes from a family of priests. We still always say grace before eating at my grandmas house. And I learned early to always say be prayers before going to sleep. I even helped give communion in the baptist church where my grandparents used to go at Sabbath. When I was younger I wanted to be a nun. It makes me crack up today. I am extremely non religious. I've been through all that, and had my little occult time too. I don't know if I would call myself an atheist though... Maybe more an agnostic I guess. I think I believe in something. But I think religion is created by man rather than the other way around. I think believing is a need most humans crave for. Weather they believe in world economics, God, cats or something else. I don't know if I actually believe there is something to believe in or if I believe that beliefs are purely man creation. I think If I would have to chose one religion to abide to, it would be Buddhism. I don't agree with everything, but it is the religion I feel is closest to my beliefs to be honest.

Day 8: A moment

A moment. I know exactly what to do. I have all the determination and strength to achieve my goal. Then something happens and I fall. The spark is gone. It's like trying to catch smoke. And my day is gone.

I try my hardest. I will try even harder. All my plans. Next year I start on a clean page.

Its You

PJ Harvey. She has followed me through my youth. Mostly with "To bring you my love". Today I give you this song from the album. "Uh-hu-her", because it explains the latest two days.

Kitty cat come on!

Oh and yeah todays mission is this:

My cat is stuck in the bathroom. I have filled his kitty litter box with popcorn. I want him to go to the toilet so I can take an urine test on him. Problem is he is just sitting behind the door and miaoing. I am listening to Belle and Sebastian's new record "Write about love" on high volume so I can't hear my cat complaining. I just want to take a hot bath. I had so much stuff to do today. But kitty comes first. Come on now kit cat....

Day 7: Friends

I have a lot of wonderful friends. But I am not very good at cherishing them...
I am really bad at calling people, and then I expect them to call me. Silly really.

I try to me open with people, but still I think I have a hard time letting people in close.

I have a couple of people I would really like to meet more often.

One person in particular is very important to me right now. He is an old friend of mine that I have gotten in contact with again. Usually when so much time has past it can be hard to pick up where you left it. We have both changed enormously since we lost contact. But in some strange way we have changed the same way. and grown closer. Or at least that is what I feel. He is someone that I really want to hang out with more often because being with him gives me so much in return. We have so much to talk about. It never ends. Lots of love to you Isak.

I have another old friend. We used to play when we were kids. I was really in love with him at the time. Well you know, like kids are in love. We met on a plane from London a couple of years ago and started writing to each other. We lost contact for a while but have just recently started writing again. I love having pen pals. I haven't had many in my life. But I have really missed it. And he is wonderful to write with. I really enjoy it. So a shout out to Adam as well.

Get Me Away From Here, I'm Dying

This is how I feel. Like banging my head into a wall.

Goodnight