Dear darkness

Does someone know how to change the header of my blogg? I feel I need a bit of a change...

Every day is getting darker, and I have decicions to make, things to do. But I just want to hide under a warm blanket and sleep through winters bitterness. No more cold or dark. I don't want this any more. Why am I in this cold country!? 6 months until it starts getting warmer... What am I doing here?

(Picture by Justyna Zdunczyk)

Natural blues - Moby

This song just makes me want to shrivel up and die. It makes all pains feel heavier. It is soon winter.

Devendra Banhart - Insect Eyes

I love this song. Of course it is one of many. Denvendra Banhart is really a genius. And he has the most amazing fragile voice. It just gives me goosebumps...

Dear Blogg...

Dear Blogg,

You have now been my friend since may. I feel we have become very close, and I have spilled my heart for you many 'a time. But still, you havn't unfolded for me. I feel I know so little about you. You always wear the same clothes and the same moods, it would be nice to see all aspects of you don't you think? Maybe you can show me your true colour one day. You know, I think change is important. We need to change sometimes to feel a little alive and crazy. Our relationship needs to move forward. It feels like we are a bit stuck. It's easy when you are in love to isolate yourself from the rest of the world. But I think you should be more out going. Maybe some coments would do it. Maybe changing the header. This is really hard for me, I think we need help to solve our problems.
Maybe there are people out there who have been in a similar situation and could give us some advise?

I know it is hard sometimes Bloggy, but we are in this together. I won't let you down.
Yours sincerely

Gabrielle

Partys gone out of bounds...

Waiting for pizza delivery. Oh how good it feels to have a man... ;)
Fantastic party yesterday. Long since I saw all the people that were there. When our friends Hanna and Anders went to bed we went to grab some food and then moved the party to Peters apartment. Niclas and I came home around 6 in the morning and stayed up watching old Tom & Jerry and Pluto films on youtube. So we weren't in bed until 8! I was hungover yesterday, but today is worse I can tell you. What better day to eat pizza and watch Twin Peaks!?

Smoke and Mirrors.

Very hungover after last night. Weird evening I can tell you. Though Gotan Project were great.
Tonight I am heading to a party at a friends house. They moved in over a year ago. But they are having their "move in"-party tonight. Before I go though I will be heading to one of my favourite bars. The bartender there promised me to make me a special coctail inspired by England. This ws last week. He told me to come back this week becous he had to fix a sertain licour for my coctail. Isn't that sweet. So I hope he is working tonight. And I hope I'll be left alone. I just want to sit down, enjoy my cocktail and read my book.

I was inspired by http://natalylopezz.blogg.se for my hairdo of tonight. Thanks!

Gotan Project - Santa Maria (Del Buen Ayre)

Last night at Gotan Project. They were amazing. Just take a little time and listen to this song. It is one of my favourites. I can't describe with words. Just listen ok?

Autumn leaves

Photo: Bogdan Grigore

Silencio

Forgot to mention. While at my grandparents we went through a couple of my gran's old clothes. It is SO depressing! I always loved her dressed and her shoes. But my gran was the slimmest thing in the whole wide world. I used to be able to get in her dresses when I was like 15, but now I cant. And all her shoes are size 39, and I take a 40-41. My sister was with me, and all the clothes and shoes fit her. :( She went home with 5 pairs of new shoes!!!! Lovely lovely old beautiful shoes. The way they aren't made any longer. I am SO jealous! I know it is impossible for me to have a body of a 16 year old. But things like this just makes me hate it. It sucks to be the oldest. I am 6 years older than the older one and 8 years older than the younger one. They will always be younger and more beautiful. I am dead serious. I hate it.

Had a great evening at Sanna's any way. Took me ages to get home though. Thank you for a fab evening!

Here are a couple of pictures I took for school the other evening. And yes, the first one is my stunning ashole of a sister who stole all the shoes! (Sorry hun, I know you can't help it. Love you anyway. <3)
Not really too happy about the photos. I was what we in Sweden call a "klant" and had the highest ISO on my camera. Didn't notice that until later and by then I was cold and tired and heading for a coffee. The last picture was just a test shot when I was testing the light. It is quite dark, but I sort of liked that. I love Pearls red hair, the problem is that it makes the face look red too. And I'm not that good at photshop... So when is the crash course Sanna?

Crazy day

Day started, waking up to 5 polish builder guys in my apartment, they sounded like a whole party. Seems like it takes five people to change a window. My sister was sleeping on the sofa and was really scarred. HAHA We didn't know they were coming, so that was a big surprise... My sister hid under her blankets. ;)

My grandpas birthday today. I was going to take some photos. But the second I took out my camera my grandma and mum started arguing. I have the funniest grandma. Don't know if it's in a good way though. I don't think my mum thinks so.... She was telling my mum that she needed medication for her nerves and that it was her fault that her collegues didn't like her... Sounds terrible now. But at the time it was quite funny. At least my sister and I thought so. They are always nagging at each other.

Tonight I am going to my friend Sanna to have a movie night. I think it will be a lot of David Lynch. It feels like my whole week has been kind of Lynch'esque. Tomorrow night is going to be strange. Unfortunately I can't write about it. I can't even talk about it. Oh, I hate being stuck in the middle of other peoples problems. I hate having to keep secrets. Well not all secrets, but sometimes I just don't want to know. I don't want to get involved. But I already am. Tough luck.

Grin and bear it.