Jimi Hendrix - All Along The Watchtower

When you realize that you are actually alone. It scares the shit out of you.

PopCo and my non functioning love life.

At the moment I feel this world is just going crazy. Everything I'm used to is gone. It feels sad in many ways. Mostly I feel a bit lost at the moment. Like I have nothing to really rely on but myself. I don't even have my own space, and that is really starting to make me frustrated now. The most reliable thing in my life at the moment is school. I could just stay there for ever. It's whats's closest to me at the moment. School and the people at school, the ones I meet almost every day, two people: Edith and Andreas. I don't see many other people at the moment, except for weekends. I miss always having someone to talk to. I miss that really badly. I'm not used to being on my own anymore. I need something to take my mind off things. What ever it may be.

Started reading PopCo today. Another book by Scarlett Thomas. Can't help loving her so much. The book starts off with a quote be Stanley Milgram. Isn't that just wonderful? It's so funny how these things happen. Just after reading "The end of Mr Y" (Another book by Thomas) that refers loads to Derida, I had to read a bit of Derida at school. Made school work loads more fun I can tell you. And now I start reading PopCo that I understand is a lot about mathematics and we are reading about statistic methods. It's just a really nice coincidence.

Otherwise I am walking arround this earth feeling extremely bored, irritated, unmotivated and unsatisfied. I need some action. I need some drama. Jesus, I am tired of this situation....

Berliner Bitter

Hey, did you miss me?

Recently I've had a lot to do. And I've been living with my grandmother for a time. It's like being on holiday from your own life. I haven't done any "normal" things. I've just been eating studying and sleeping mostly. It's been nice. This week i am back in my apartment, and so back to old bad habits. Like watching films instead of studying. I have to get a grip of myself...

N and I broke up after tree years. We both thought it was for the best. He is the most fantastic man I ever knew. He is my soul mate and my best friend and means so much to me I hardly know where to begin. But we had to move on. No hard feelings though. We both agreed to this, and actually, I think it is SO nice to be alone. Now I just need my own apartment so I can be alone. For real this time. Hopefully it won't take too long.

Berlin. Was where N and I met for the first time. They shut just about a month ago. This was one of their cocktails. Berliner Bitter. Not that bitter though. ;) But it is nice with nostalgia.

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